Pride brings a person low, but the lowly in spirit gain honour. Proverbs 29:23


April 2017


Truthfully, I’m scared for the winter that will come. I’m scared for the cold that will surround me. But moreover, I’m scared for the coldness I’ll see in the neighbourhoods around me. Summertime nights, rolling into the car park, eating out late, 2AM and I can still smell the smoke wafting up our windows from the house in front. All in my mind is fire. But in winter, as night hits by 5PM all the doors are closed, curtains drawn and the wind beating against the windows is all I hear. I’m scared, to wake up and see the grey sky. Because honestly, it reminds me of the dark days when I couldn’t speak to you. But I’m praying this time, that we won’t repeat the dark days…let’s end the silence.



You know, she always used to tell me,

“When I was young I could’ve been anything,

I ever dreamed; I could make,

My wildest dreams no more fantasy,

But a reality.”

Her eyes dazzled like a thousand diamonds,

When she spoke about it,

And she wiped away a tear as she spoke.

I could feel the memories of her youth,

Emanating into the room,

Turning it from the desolation it was,

To a kingdom.

So I wondered at this freedom,

She possessed and imagined her,

A ruler, an empress,

But she told me after,

“…Even with all this,

The one thing that I could never achieve,

Was my happiness.”


The Unforgettable #20

“It’s always good to know the world is beautiful when you’re happy, but it’s even better when the world looks beautiful when finally, you’re happy.”


The Unforgettable #19


I promise that these tears,

My midnight weeping,

Are for you.

I’m crying for you,

That you might be here.


The Unforgettable #19

“One of the things I’ve had trouble convincing myself of is that it’s okay to hurt because apparently it helps us to grow from our pain…When the rain poured down from the heavens, it was at once that all became bliss and beautiful. Paradise.”


The Unforgettable #18


Originally, I guess I was the one,

Waiting for you to turn towards me.

But it turned out that I couldn’t be there,

Anymore for you to turn to.

I made you free from one more option.

But maybe your decisions,

Were set in stone,

So why did it always feel like the opposite?


The Unforgettable #18

“Could my nightmare be a paradise in disguise?”


The Unforgettable #17


How am I supposed to tell them that I simply don’t want be like them? That I want to be free and it’s all I desire. I know that from freedom comes the sensation of peace. But they won’t listen. They force me to do what they want so that they can get what they want. But it seems all so wrong to me in my mind. If it is wrong, then I am not the one at fault. If I am wrong, I may be at fault but I don’t think that I’ll ever stop fighting and rejecting what is being offered.




These highs came every week,

I used to believe it was chance,

That I found what I needed,

For the excitement to begin.

But now it was part of the plan,

I can alternate,

Switch and change what began,

As the dream,

Make it more beautiful and sweet,

Rule it like an emperor,

Or give it up,

Maybe I won’t do that,

Just wait to see what the months,




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